WARNING: THIS JOURNAL IS LONG AND A BIT PISSIER THAN NORMAL. IF NOTHING MAKES SENSE TO YOU, PLEASE LET ME KNOW. IF I'M IN A BETTER MOOD, I'LL EXPLAIN IN ANOTHER JOURNAL. THANK YOU.

The day is over. thank god.

It was a crappy day. I got to work late cause traffic was ridiculous at 9 am... I mean... fuck! who the hell is out driving at 9 am on the 405?? bleh. and then then I had to make a pit stop at the gas station, cause my mom left me with no gas in her car.

Today was a 1/3/5 period day for the students (I work as a tutor at my old high school), and my co-worker/long-time friend leenerz started school so she wasn't there today. I was stuck with Doc and Jordan who loooooooooooove picking on us girls, especially when its just one of us. not cool. Then the only person I could eat lunch with was Doc, and I don't like eating with Doc anymore cause... he's different. He's changed since the beginning of the year. He used to be nice to me and all, but I guess he's more comftorable around all of us. That means he tends to poke fun. I haven't been in the mood for that at all lately. Also, being with him alone brings up bad memories of my ex. grrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Then Doc had to leave before 7th period, so I was pretty much in charge of the 9th graders. And they would NOT SHUT UP. I felt like a senior trying to take charge of a class. I know I look young, and it doesn't help my situation that I get quiet but... it really bothered me. Before class ended, a student I'm cool with asked me if I was still dating my ex, and I said no. That didn't bring up my spirits for after school tutoring, when my cousin came for the first time in months, and almost immediately asked me if I was still ok with my ex. Again, I had to say no, and of course she wanted to know why. I told her I didn't want to talk about it right then, and I suppose she misunderstood me, because she asked me to send her a message on myspace later explaining everything later. ugh.

Then my other cousin came home with my mom and me, and he also asked me if I was still with my ex, and again I had to say no. This was the first day since we broke up that anyone has ever asked me, and all of a sudden, everyone and their grandmother wanted to know if I was still with him. Stay out of my life people!

My mom was criticizing my driving the entire way home, saying that I was going too fast, and not braking fast enough. Blergh. At one point, I had to turn off the radio, cause she said it was too loud. Then she started yelling at my uncle over her earpiece; that's when I turned my radio back on.

My wonderful day ended beautifully with two lovely events. One, I almost got into an accident with some douchebag who clearly ran his stop sign and was making a left turn heading straight towards me. I'm talking head on collision in a residential street. I was so pissed. And then my mom made me stop by my grandma's house, and there my GRANDMA asked me about my ex. I really need to sleep for 5 days straight or something. And the icing on the cake? My neck now hurts like a bitch, and I'm positive its from the near death experience with the douche.

I'm glad today is over. I'll try to sleep, and hopefully not break my neck in the middle of the night. My mom and I are going to the chiropractor tomorrow, so it should be all good.

I'm not much in the talking mood about issues with my ex, but I'll just say its complicated, we broke up last week, and I'm really bothered that 4 people asked about him today.
COULDN'T IT HAVE BEEN LIKE ONE A FUCKING DAY OR SOMETHING??? Today would have been the perfect day to just cry and vent to him... but I can't do that. I'll go crawl in a hole now. I'm too old to be all anxy emo teenage whiny years age. I think hanging around too many teenagers everyday is getting to my head.

p.s.- reira, I'm not really in the joking mood right now. don't start anything.